To be an Independent Variable

I discover that my feelings can be easily influenced by other people. Anyone including complete strangers and anything that they say or do can have an effect on my mood.

I became so dependent on the attitudes of other people to determine my mood that happiness became so unpredictable and beyond control.

Is there someone whom I can derive happiness from? An endless, stable source that I can leech on to feed my melancholy.

But how can I let someone determine my happiness? It might even be better to rely my happiness on a piece of bak kwa.

It is too risky and too dangerous. Happiness should come from within oneself to be real and reliable.